5056 - So hard

It’s so hard to say sorry or connect

When your pride takes over your common sense

But I did it, kind of, and why neglect 

Your true feelings when they are so immense 

You’re feeling glum all day. No recompense 

For throwing friendship away even when 

It feels right, if it leaves me feeling tense

Listen to yourself, heart not mind and then

You’ll know you should be sticking with this friend 

It’s not weak but strong, it’s my choice, now next 

After saving that friendship - add more friends!

Work’s going well too. Everything depends 

On me, I earned what I’ve got. Don’t deflect 

From the path through pride. Don’t be a bell-end!

5055 - Bunch of fives

The number of today’s diary entry 

Has three fives in it. My favourite number 

Appears thrice, yes, there’s fives one, two and three

I wonder why five’s such a cool figure 

Its shape is Arabic, its curvature 

Exotic, sultry, fine art, all of those 

Its origins somewhere in Arabia

I once studied Arabic, its letters

And the most common sayings and phrases 

A union course, cheap, academically 

Frankly not so good, real mediocre 

I’ve still got my notebook from that old course 

Of course, travel nowadays ain’t easy 

But I’ve been places that use that scripture 

5054 - Football’s back

Live soccer on tv first time I’ve seen 

For a few months. They’re creating crowd sounds

But there’s no-one there. Empty seats the scene 

It’s the FA Cup quarter-final round

It seems so weird all these huge football grounds 

Are empty, and also it’s now late June 

This is an April game delayed as towns

Became deserted. Until we’re immune 

We may not go back to big crowds, packed train

Tram bus street or grandstand til a vaccine

Is ready. Until then keep your head down 

Look after lungs and don’t let blood thicken

You may never get healthy as you’d been 

Take it seriously, don’t all act like clowns 

5053 - Manchester adventure

Walked into Manchester. Wasn’t my plan 

I just wanted to see if the local 

Charity shop was open yet. You can

Buy cheap second hand furniture. Table

Is what I need. The last one took a fall

I knocked and broke it as I mopped the floor 

But no luck. Still closed!  Then I thought I will 

Take my weekly walk now, since I have more 

Time on my hands it seems more than ever 

Computer repair shops where soon I can

Get a new keyboard, that became my goal 

Did that and asked in O2 why the poor

Apps performance on my second hand phone. 

Seems it’s too out of date! That’s so uncool!

5052 - Drink Day 2

Because I was off work Thursday this was 

My second day of drink though still Friday 

But I was good, first did exercises!

The sun was hot and with humidity

Humid-19 I joked in a friendly 

Chat while working away in living room 

Listened to Disgraceland podcasts, least three

Or four, Studio 54, Prince, and boom -

Two new Jim Morrison stories. The sun

Wasn’t as hot but still pleasant of course 

This June hasn’t been as sunny as May

In fact this month has been a lonely one

So I decided I should advertise 

My spare room tomorrow, dispel that gloom!

5051 - Day off brush off

A lovely sunny day as they forecast 

So I took the day off, intending to

Sunbathe. In the end I gave it a rest 

Because it was so hot yesterday, too

Soon to go out again, not unless you 

Wanna get burned, that is, so I stayed in

Watched loads of Netflix stuff, but chat fell through 

I thought we’d agreed but fairweather friend

Let me down not for the first time again 

Watched more tv on my phone, and podcasts 

Had loads of booze in already, a few

Bottles of beer and then some Lisbon wine

Sunny balcony evening was well passed

Last thing I watched - a Ted Bundy docu...

Thur 25 June 

5050 - The heatwave’s back

The heatwave’s back, but only for two days 

I worked until two in the afternoon 

Then got myself outside, catch the sun’s rays

A chance at last to top up my May tan 

In advance of tomorrow’s day off when

I can do it again. Too tired for much

So I’m listening to podcasts - Disgraceland-

Joe Exotic and Ozzy Osbourne kitsch

Then there’ll still be time later on to watch 

More tv on my phone and pass the hours

And go to bed early. Welcome back, sun!

This midsummer time is the top time, natch!

The sun stays in the sky without a pause 

Until it sinks down between nine and ten